I’m (19 F) currently in college and about to start a new job. I have a boyfriend who loves me and is always here for me but has a hard time comforting me when I’m depressed. I can’t blame him for that as I’ve always known he wasn’t good with comforting people emotionally. Talking to my parents isn’t usually helpful and just makes me feel like I’m not really fixing anything, just crying to my parents. My sister is my best friend but she tends to not know really how to help either. I’m currently in a slump of feeling unmotivated towards school, feeling alone, feeling like a burden on the people I love; I feel like a pointless waste of space. I feel unvalued, like a lesser aspect of everyone’s lives. I don’t know what to do. I feel absolutely hopeless. I’ve been here before and I hate it. I hate feeling this way and I can usually get myself out but I feel like school is going to slip away if I don’t fix this situation I’m in mentally. I’m anxious constantly. I worry constantly. I feel like crying every day but I push it down for fear of wearing everyone around me down to the point of not even caring about how I feel. I’ve seen the way people react to my vulnerability and it has always ended in me being an annoyance to them. I hate myself sometimes for this. I simply don’t know what to do.
tldr: I feel like I have nowhere to turn
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